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Dizziness

Dizziness

Dizziness was the first MS symptom that happened to me and It's the one that frightens me the most. The sensation of the world spinning around terrifies me deeply. I still remember exactly how it happened the first time I experienced dizziness. I was spending summer at the beach with my family and friends. I was about 18. I was sitting by the kitchen table. It was just an ordinary day and suddenly my brain went into a fast and brutal spin. It felt as if my head was turning 360 degrees. It lasted only seconds but it scared me deeply. Somehow I acknowledged that something really bad had just happened to me and I wouldn't get the answer anytime soon. I'd pretend that nothing happened but I knew that it would come back to get me and change my life forever. I didn't tell anyone how I felt that day.

Two years later in the early morning before I woke up to go to work I felt it again. The dizziness was so intense. The bedroom was spinning and this time it didn't last seconds. I could barely even open my eyes. I was extremely panicked. I was laying down on my back and I remember holding onto the sides of my bed so that I wouldn't fall off on the ground.
It lasted for a week.

After that my life wasn't the same. I spent years trying to keep my balance, trying to keep that sensation away. I took medicines for other types of diseases, doing what I could to keep up with the job, college and life. It was overwhelming in all the ways you can imagine. I was diagnosed 10 years later after that.

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